'I'm living just to keep going.'
We all have our ups and our downs. But at the end of the day the best advice I have been given is to live in the moment. I constantly question my actions and whether they are the right ones. But that isn't the right way to go about it. I have also been handed the advice that if I question things to much and worry about certain decisions being "right", then I'll never go for anything. I am searching for something that I can't even describe because I don't know what it is. All I know is that life is as amazing as it is insane and unpredictable. Life is about expecting the unexpected and rolling with whatever it is you do. Do what makes you happy. And if you don't know what makes you happy then just keep your eyes and mind open. Because when you least expect it life gives you the opportunity to strike.
I don't know what I am saying right now but it all stems from so many different emotions that I feel each and everyday I am out here. I see people putting on a show and I see people as real as I've ever seen. I respect so much of those that aren't putting on a front. Out here in LA appearance is everything which is something I've never wanted to conform too and I won't. There is so much beyond what first meets the eye. I am out here to surprise people. For them to see me and not expect anything. Just so when I do snuff them with a surprise attack they are that much more engaged.
Hands down I get sad about all the people I left behind for the time being. Before I left I tried to soak up every second I had left before I left and was aware that I wasn't going to feel the effects till I got here.
And I feel it.
I am not scared to be here, so far from home. The feelings I feel are simply the footprint all my friends and family left on me. I knew I have always been blessed but I now it hit me like a ton of bricks for some reason. Cot damn do I love the people back EAST!
Responsibility is weird.
All I need is muh family, muh friends, a toilet bowl, the female touch and a Jets Superbowl.
"I'm going to paraphrase Thoreau here... rather than love, than money, than faith, than fame, than fairness... give me truth."
I miss JakeDavid.